7. Heaven

Your Face in front of me
I fall down to my knees
You lift me up and lead me on
My guilt and sin are gone

Streets of gold
No more pain
Great wonders to behold
Awesome marvels to gain

The choirs of angels singing loud
The creatures around Your throne, humbly bowed
The saints loudly declaring You name
For You are awesome and marvelous and worthy of praise

Emerald and jasper grace Your throne
A rainbow is Your crown
How great and awesome is Your name
I will proclaim it throughout all the world!

You were the one to break the seal
And loudly trumpets blast
And all the people will feel
The marvelous wonder of Your glory at last!

The time I’ve waited was so long
To spend eternity with You
And now I’m here and, oh, the wonders are so great
How marvelous the view!

Streets of gold
Sea of glass
Angels sing
As Your light shines on my face

Written 6/4/11

37. Eyes

Brown spheres
Stare into mine
What beauty I see
What beauty divine

In your eyes
I see your dreams
Your goals, your fears
Your very being

What do you see?
Looking into mine
Do you see what you mean to me?
Do you see how I love you?

The window to your soul
Stares into mine
There is no escape
No way out of here

But I’d rather be here
Than anywhere else
Time stops
Hearts soar

Hold me close
Don’t let me go
Let time stand still
For an hour or so

But if time is stopped
Then how will we know
When the hour is gone?

So, hold me close
Don’t let me go
Let time stand still
As you stare into
My eyes

Your dreams
Your goals
Your fears
Here they are so real

Let me linger
In your eyes
Let me read into your life
Share with me your deepest secrets
Not with your voice
But with your eyes

Written 6/4/11

30. Under the Rain

Walking down the street
Hand in hand
It started to rain

You stopped
You turned to me
Held me close
And abruptly said
You had to go
And leave me alone

I asked how long
You would be gone

Forever was your reply
You weren’t coming back
I’d have to get used to life
Without you
I’d have to do it by myself
No hand to hold

As I started to cry
You said goodbye
You kissed me once
Long and sweet
And let go of my hand

I tried to hold on
But you got away
And walked down the street

I stood there under the light
Tears and rain streamed down my face
I was wet and cold

You left me standing
All alone
With no hope
Under the rain


Written 6/4/11

6-Break Away

The sound of life droning on
Keeps blaring in my ears
I want to shut it out
I want to break away

I want to change the world
I want to make a difference
I want to let others see
That life isn’t “just about me”

Take a step
Break away
Show the world
That it’s okay

Don’t be afraid
Keep pushing on
Even when the walls crumble down
Break away from the standards set

Don’t let the world shape you
Let Jesus show you the right path
Let Him be the Potter to your clay
Let Him show you that you are a diamond in the rough

Break away from the world
Change your life
Take the jump
Take the leap
And Break away

Written 4/26/11

5-Seeking Solace

Seeking solace
But none can be found
My world is falling apart
As the walls crumble to the ground

No palace large, no cottage small
Can protect from the danger of them all
And who are they, who seek me out?
All my fears and all my doubt

Seeking solace
Nothing is there
How on earth can I get away
Would I give all of them up?
Would I even dare?

Fear is closing in
And Doubt is right behind
They’re getting closer
But solace I cannot find

Seeking solace
But there is none
Is this the end?
Am I finally done?

But then You come
Fear screams in terror
And Doubt backs away
You hold me tight
Everything will be okay

Solace found
In Your arms alone
You rescued me
And You took me home

Written 4/14/11

4-Dark

Fear’s hands grip my throat
As Darkness closes in
How do I escape this threat?
And how am I supposed to win?

The room, pitch black, is closing in on me
On everything in my life, especially my sanity
The ground is crumbling beneath my feet
And here I stand, as I accept defeat

I don’t want to lose, don’t want to give in
But it seems like it is impossible to win
The light at the end of the tunnel has disappeared
And everything is going wrong, just as I have always feared

I want to cry, I don’t want to fight
I want to give in, I want to make things right
I’m losing sight of my final destination
I just want to rid myself of all this devastation

Fear’s hands grip my throat
And I try to escape
How can I breakaway from this danger
That is closing in on me?

Written 4/14/11

3-Light

Left and right
Darkness is all I see
I want to see You
Standing bright
Right in front of me
I call Your name
And You come close
Light is all I see
You wipe away the Darkness
From my memory
You stand by my side
I thought You would leave
You’re holding me tight
And I’m surrounded by Light
I hold You close
And feel so safe
You let me know
You won’t go away
Left and right
Light surrounds me now
Darkness is completely gone
Gone from my memory

Written 4/12/11

Wow....just....WOW!!

Wow! That's all I can say right now as i think of my Creator.
I mean...just stop and think for a minute...isn't it absolutely amazing that God spoke a word and the earth came into existence! He made man by using the dust of the earth! He knew that we would need people...so He created woman. He gave us the job of having dominion over the earth....which personally...i think we are doing a pretty crappy job...but anyways...the God of the universe LOVES US!!!! He sent His ONLY SON to DIE on the CROSS for OUR sins so that we could CHOOSE to LIVE ETERNALLY with the GOD OF THE UNIVERSE!!!! Doesn't that just blow your mind?! I mean....maybe it's just me...but seriously...take a look out your window...right now...i mean...look out your window and just think that God created all that with His WORDS! HIS WORDS! Isn't that AMAZING!? The trees, the grass, the flowers, the animals, the whole world...He made them with HIS WORDS! And.....He GAVE IT TO US! And what do we do day to day? We go about life and basically ignore the blessing of creation...we are too busy with school, work, activities, and whatever else in our lives....what if...just what if..we took some time everyday..and just spent some time in God's Creation and just talked to Him...everyday...even if it's just 5 minutes...but no iPod, no distractions, just you and God..and talk to Him! I mean...wouldn't that be AMAZING!? Just spend some time in God's Creation and talk to the CREATOR! Isn't it amazing that we can actually have a personal relationship with our Creator?! The Creator of the Universe....i mean...this is the CREATOR OF THE UNIVERSE people and we CAN TALK WITH HIM LIKE WE TO TALK ANYONE ELSE!!! ISN'T THAT JUST MIND-BOGGLINGLY AMAZING!? I'm just so amazed that He would even think about giving us the opportunity to have a personal relationship with Him when it was because of us that He sent His Son to die on a cross for us. I mean..think about that anguish...think of the person you love the most...and now think of them on a cross....are you horrified? are you in anguish just thinking about it? that's what God had to go through because of His love for US! He chose to send HIS ONLY SON to die for us! It's just amazing...i am just floored that God loves me...Little Olivia Grace Varga...THAT much! I mean...seriously....me...God loves me...AND He loves you! Isn't that AMAZING!? Alright...i think i've gotten my point across....i know that i could talk about this for a loong time..but i would just be repeating myself a lot...so i'll spare you that :P but yea...just stop and think...GOD, the creator of the universe, LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and because of His love for you...He sent His Son..Jesus Christ....to DIE on the CROSS so that you could choose to LIVE ETERNALLY WITH GOD! IT'S AMAZING!!!!!!!!!!! think about it.

~Liv

2- Love

Love is not a feeling that everyone can feel
Rather, it’s an action that must be real
For if it’s not real what is it then? Fake
And who are we for another person’s heart to take?
A heart must be given to us through the show of love
Not through a symbol like flowers or a pure white dove
Love isn’t butterflies in the stomach when you see him or her
Rather it’s the choice to keep pushing on and keep it from being over
It’s the call backs after the hang ups
It’s saying “Keep pushing on,” when you hear “I’m giving up”
It’s the forgiving of offenses when forgiveness isn’t deserved
It’s the willingness to serve and to be served
Love never gives up on the person that receives
For if love could end, where would we all be?
Love has lost it’s meaning…it’s not a feeling that you feel
Rather, it’s an action that must be completely real

Written 4/9/11

1-Introduction

So there's this thing called the 100 Theme Challenge that my metaphorical sister Hannah told me about...and in an attempt to get more topics and ideas and motivation for some poetry and other such things...so yea....you'll be seeing post that are numbered now...and that is according to the 100 Theme Challenge subject list. So yea...this is a pretty lame introduction...but yea...i'll have to work on creativity. :P

There's a rose to every thorn....you just gotta stick around long enough to find it.....even if it hurts.

Sometimes the most beautiful things are found just after it rains.

When I consider your heavens, the work of your fingers, the moon and the stars, which you have set in place, what is man that you are mindful of him, the son of man that you care for him? You made him a little lower than the heavenly beings and crowned him with glory and honor. You made him ruler over the works of your hands; you put everything under his feet: all flocks and herds, and the beasts of the field, the birds of the air, and the fish of the sea, all that swim the paths of the seas. O LORD, our Lord, how majestic is your name in all the earth!

Psalm 8:3-9

"Who builds his upper chambers in the heavens and founds his vault upon the earth; who calls for the waters of the sea and pours them out upon the surface of the earth— the Lord is his name."

Amos 9:6 ESV

Worthy is the Lord of our praise! His name is great and His works are wonderful!!

Is life black and white? Or is there a gray area?
Is life just raindrops and clouds? Or is there some sunshine too?

Let Go

Fingers closed tightly on my dreams
I never wanted to let them go
Never wanted them to leave
Until You whispered in my ear
And told me “It’s gonna be okay.”
So I slowly opened my fingers
And let them go today
It hurt a little, then a lot
Knowing I may not get what I want
The sting was painful, but I could see
You have a perfect plan for me
You took my hand and led me on
You’ll never let me go and I’ll keep you number one
I’ll hold you close and give You my dreams
Although it’s harder than it seems
I’ll learn to let go everyday
Knowing that you have already paved my way

Written 4/8/11

I'm Sick of It

I'm sick of it!

Sick of the world and the messages it sends me and my generation
I'm sick of being told that i have to be skinny, that i have to have this kind of hair, that i have to wear this kind of make-up, that i have to have a boyfriend, that i have to disrespect my parents, that i have to be rude to my siblings, that i have to mistreat my friends just so i can be "perfect."
I'm sick of being pressured by the world to be this messed-up jerk to everyone around me. I'm sick of being told that to get somewhere in life i have to lie, steal, and cheat my way to the top.
I'm sick of being told all this crap just so i look like i'm successful and beautiful and yea...you get the picture.....
It really really frustrates me that this world is so messed up....it's so annoying! and the really sad thing is that most of us buy into the lies...including me...
but yea...i've ranted long enough i think....

sorry that this is a rather pointless post...i just had to get it out there....

~Livs

Heaven

This is not a poem....i was knitting in my room when i just started thinking of Heaven...and then i started thinking about how amazing it is that Jesus cleanses us with His blood and takes our sins on Himself....so yea...this is a product of all that...hope you enjoy it :)

Heaven
4/1/11


I stand before You with hammer and nails in hand
Those are the first things that You remove from my possession
The regret that washes over me is replaced by a warm, steady stream of Your Blood
I look at my hands…they aren’t black with sin anymore
They are the purest white I’ve ever seen
You walk up to me and take my tattered rags that I wear for clothing
And you place in my hands a bright white cloak
I put it over my head and it feels so light….lighter than the clouds
You lead me to a room…where all my sins were kept
Every single one has a blatant description of what I had done that hurt you
Every single one has my name in BIG black letters on it
You walk up to one….You hold it in Your hand
And You remove from Your pocket a blood red eraser
You slowly erase my name from one….then another…then another….
until You have removed my name from all of them
You then take a pen…and dip it in blood red ink
And…to my utter dread and surprise…You begin to write Your Name on each one of my sins
I scream…I shout….I beg You not to declare that You have committed the sin that I had committed…
But You keep writing…..to my utter dismay and relief
I am washed…I am cleaned….I am proved innocent of all that I had done against You
After You finish re-writing names on all of my used-to-be sins
You take my hand and lead me toward a golden gate…that is studded with pearls
Angels loudly blow trumpets on each side of us
The gate opens wide….to a street made of gold
I stop….I pull my hand away from Yours…..I look at You….Am I really allowed in there?
You take my hand again….and You slowly lead me into the city of splendor
Heaven…I am free….I am clean…I am Your Child in Your Arms!

Would I?

How much do I love Him?
I was thinking that today
Would I give my life for Him?
Or would I just throw Him away?

Would I tell my friends’ of His Name?
Would I share or would I be ashamed?
Would I put aside my plans for someone
I can’t even touch with my own hands?

Would I be true to the blood of Christ?
Knowing, full well, it could cost me my life?
Would I deny His Name if someone put a gun to my head?
Or, by faith, would I proclaim His name, even if it meant I were dead?

Would I follow Him to the ends of the earth?
Or would I sit safely in my church?
Would I take the leap of faith
No matter what was at stake?

Would I?

Written 3/29/11

Your Arms

Wrapped in Your arms
I feel safe and secure
Nothing can touch me in the messed up world

You hold me close
And let me know
You'll be with me wherever I go

Wrapped in Your arms
I can cry all my tears
And I always know that You are near

You love me
I love You
You hold me tight
Safe from all harm
In Your arms

Written 3/5/11

All Creation Screams Your Name

The birds singing in the trees
the trees blowing in the breeze
All Creation screams Your Name

The flowers in the field grow tall
The rocks, the grass, the waterfalls
All Creation screams Your Name

The clouds that cover up the sun
The fish that swim, the deer that run
All Creation screams Your Name

From the highest mountain peak
to the lowest bubbling creek
All Creation screams Your Name

Written 3/4/11

Someday: Dedicated to my Daddy

Papa, twirl me around
And pull me in close
Hold me too tight
Cause someday I'll go

Go off with the man of my dreams
Wrapped in his arms for the world to see

So, Daddy, treasure these days
That I'm your little girl
Cause someday
I won't be so little anymore

You'll still be my man
Still be number one
But someday I'll run into the arms of my knight
And you'll hold back tears with all of your might

So, Daddy, right now
Keep me on the ground
Twirl me around
Hold me too tight
Cause someday I'm gonna take off and take flight

Written 2/25/11

Days: Dedicated to my Daddy

Little Chef, Big Chef
Games on the floor
You reading stories as I beg for more

Hugs and kisses
Spanks on the behind
All those days I treasure
All those days are mine!

Days of joy
Days of play
Days of "I don't like you! Go away!"
Days of hide-and-seek
Days of catch-me-if-you-can
Days of walking along and holding your hand
Days of being your princess
Days of you being my warden
Days I'll never forget
Because I'll hold them
Close to my heart
Never to escape
Oh, how those memories
Are such wonderful days!

Written 2/25/11

Three Nails and One Cross

Three nails, one cross,
Your life said to be lost
Love pouring down from Your brow
And all I can say is how?

How can you die for a sinner like me?
I don't even know who I'm supposed to be!
Yet You, the Son of God, lost Your life for mine to gain
You endured all that suffering, all that pain

Forgiveness You breathed on those who drove the nails in
Forgiveness You poured out on me and my sin

I used to look in the mirror at a lamb who was lost
And now I look in the mirror at a lamb who is washed

Washed in the cleansing flow of God's eternal love
from three nails, one cross,
And Your life that was said to be lost!


Written 2/25/11

Drowning

My feet are sinking into the sand
the tide is rising quickly
I'm begging You to reach out Your Hand
and rescue me from the danger that is approaching

The tide races up
and licks my feet
it pulls me out into the depths
and now I'm drowning

drowning in sorrow
drowning in pain
drowning in failure
and then i feel it

a strong steady hand
reaches out and grasps mine
You pull me out
You hold me close
You tell me that I'm safe

no more drowning
cause You hold me close
no more drowning
cause I'm safe in Your arms

Written 2/23/11
Once again...no perfect rhyme...but it's got a lot of heart

Paper Face

A paper face
She wears it everyday
To show the world that she's okay
She doesn't want to attend this masquerade
But no one understands why she must play

Play her game
Play pretend
and she's fooling herself
lying to her head

pretending that nothing is wrong
is only gonna make things harder
but it's easier than letting people in
and telling people why she feels this way

she doesn't want to share
share her deepest secrets
share her pain
share her hurt
and she's never sure if they really and truly care

So she keeps it all inside
She continues to hide
Behind her paper face
Which she has so masterfully painted
Her painted, paper face

Written 2/22/11
I know it doesn't rhyme perfectly...but it's got a lot of heart.

Tears

Tears
by Olivia Grace Varga

Tears roll down and fall to the floor
"Stop!" you cry
and then you scream "No more!"
walls are closing in on all sides
but there is no where that you can hide
you search for relief
but none can be found
you keep looking back
and then you fall to the ground
they say you can't do it
they say it's not good enough
so you stay where you are and hope it will stop
you pray for an answer
you search for the truth
but you just can't find it
and there isn't any proof
you can't win no matter where you go
you're always hit down
there's never any hope
of getting back up and taking the road
that leads to happiness
and leads to joy
tears roll down and fall to the floor
"Stop!" you cry
then you scream "No more!"

This was my first poem...sadly i don't remember the date i wrote it....but it was sometimes in late 2009-early 2010

Victory: The Sequel to Voices

Victory
A Poem written to Jesus Christ
Written on 11/17/10
By Olivia Grace Varga

Victory! You cried when You sent him away
Gone forever, not just today
No longer will he whisper “Kill yourself” in my ear
No more will he torture me, so I will cheer

I will cheer Your victory against Satan’s loss
I will cheer You on cause You are my Boss
I will smile and live everyday for You
Knowing that You will see me through

I will sing Your name from the highest of hills
Knowing that once again you have given me chills
You rescued me when I thought You were gone
You pulled me out, no more in my pain will I drown

You stayed by my side when I thought You were gone
You whispered “I love you” in my ear all day long
You wiped my tears from my face when I cried
You told me “Don’t listen to him, he lied”

“You mean the world to me” You say in my ear
“I died for you and set you free, my dear”
“You were worth losing My life”
“Don’t you ever believe that you aren’t worth my time”

Victory! You cried when You sent him away
Gone forever, not just today
You have rescued, once again, my troubled soul
You have taken my pieces and made me whole

Voices

Voices
A Poem read to Jesus Christ
Written on 11/14/10
By Olivia Grace Varga


Voices pound inside my head
All they say is “You’re better off dead”
Crying I lay on the floor
I can’t hardly take it anymore

I lift my head and hear Your voice
I’ll follow You, it’s all my choice
The other voices start to scream
I start to think “Is this a dream?”

It’s not a dream, it’s all too real
I want to snuff out the feeling I feel
Laying here I know I can’t
So I lay on the floor and rant

“Jesus, save me
Reach out Your hand
Pick me up
And help me stand”

This is my cry, these past 3 days
I close my eyes and make my case
Before You I lie, a mess on the floor
You make it so I can take more

Voices pound inside my head
All they say is “You’re better off dead”
Crying I lay on the floor
Knowing that with Your help I can take more

Fighting

I wrote this poem when i was going through a particularly hard time where i was about to give up fighting.....but i asked God to help me through it and this poem is the result of that request.

Fighting for life
Fighting for love
Fighting for everything
All of the above

Knees on the floor
Hands lifted high
Tears rolling down
As I wonder why?

Fighting for freedom
Fighting for air
Starting to wonder
Should I even care?

But I'll keep on fighting
With You by my side
Knowing with Your help
I'll come out alright

written 1/4/11